| time flies |
[Mar. 24th, 2004|04:06 pm] |
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| | jack meowing | ] |
Jen and I moved to atlanta a year ago. I can't beleive that it has been that long. There are still a lot of things that we havn't gotten around to doing. mostly tourist things but still. Sometimes I feel like I am on a big hamster wheel and I am just running and running and all I see is the blur of the bars going by, but there are quiet moments like this one that I can focus and see what is beyond the bars and know that I am safe and running because I want to, not because I have to.
Jen and I are struggling a bit financially, but because we are trying to establish a home for ourselves. Nice furniture,new cars, the things that we want. We realized how lucky we are last night to always have the cash for the things that we need, and we always have money to lend out if we need to, it is the things that we want that we struggle with. That isn't so bad. I still wish both of our credit card debts were non existant, but we are working on that. as for savings, well, we both have 401s and the tiny amount in the bank that never seems to grow.
I have confidence that we will get it all under control, it is just going to take some time and self discipline.
this time last year we were 5000 further in debt than we are now...so things are getting better.
If we could only work on our health at the same time.
My tummy is getting bigger :( |
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| happy day |
[Mar. 22nd, 2004|11:27 pm] |
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This morning sucked. But then it got better, I got offered a promotion. Woohoo. I am all about more money. get my ass outa debt. Could be worse. |
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| drama and thrift stores |
[Mar. 22nd, 2004|06:02 pm] |
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| | airplane passing and the news | ] |
we just got back from our trip, it was ok, but the mood was set early saturday morning with amandas drinking. I am worried about her but hesitant to do anything. Jen and I discussed about her not liking animals. It is weird. Somehting is wrong with that. It is not that she prefers cats over dogs or vice versa, or that she is allergic to them or that she is afraid of them, she just doesn't like them.
Jen and I went to the thrift store today. She picked out some really cool kitchy souviner pieces from the grand canyon and someplace else. This guy found a first edition copy of dorthy parker poems. He was elated. There were a couple of really cool chairs that we almost got but decided that we didn't have the room for them. We wentt o noodles for lunch. I really didn't think Jen would find something that she wanted on the menu, she did, but she didn't like it. I really appreciated her trying something new though. It meant a lot to me. I finally got the stuff to put up some shelves. I am going to use corner brackets and sheet metal. I was struggling in home depot until i found the sheet metal. I didn't want a prefab shelf but was havign a hard time finding what I did want.
We gotta go grocery shopping when she wakes up. I love grocery shopping with her. There is something very domistic about it.
I just saw on the news that the fda put out a warnign that some antipressants may cause suicide in patients. Guess what? Both of mine are on the list. Whoo hoo. I guess that expalins why I get asked if I am suicidal everytime I visit the doctor. I havn't had any problems though. I am either fine or yucky. I would liek to get off of both of them but I am not sure if that is possible. I would have to find some kind of alternative treatment. I guess with my moms background I should count my blessings that i am functionable and take my meds to stay in control. 00 |
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| lotta nothin |
[Mar. 21st, 2004|07:48 pm] |
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| | whole lotta nothin | ] |
watch the vagina monolouges. It was ok. I was a bit disappointed. I 'm not sure what i was expecting. It was funny and sad and serious and enlightening. I wanted more. Started thinking about my mom never visiting. Got a bit down and then shook it off like I always do. Don't need her. She needs me. Was still cramping when I got up this morning, went to work anyway because of the promotion possibility. Having an interview tomorrow. had veggie corndogs and pringles for dinner, then did some yoga with jen. i fell asleep during the mediatation part, which mad her laugh cause I was snoring.
I don't think you are supposed to get that relaxed.
Amanda put in her notice. I'll miss working with her,but if youhate work that bad then ya gotta do something. |
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| oh my god |
[Mar. 20th, 2004|12:21 pm] |
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I finally started after 3 days of cramps. I was in agony for 2 hours or so. It was the worst it has been in a while. I am glad I started today instead of tomorrow, because there is no way in hell i would have made it to work. I am also happy that I will be carefree when we go to Savannah. Wheeee.
Last night I worked on a painting. I was inspired by little Heather. I did a lot to it but this morning I realized that i have 2 different planes going on. Which would be fine if that is what I was going for but it is not. Hopefully wheni fix that it will all come together. |
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| road trip |
[Mar. 19th, 2004|07:46 pm] |
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| | king of the hill sitcom halloweeen show | ] |
Jen and I decided to take a spur of the moment trip back to Birmingham. SHe really wanted to see Vulcan. They took him down for repairs just before she moved there and then put him back up right after we left. So off to Vulcan we go. I dunno how many stories it was somewhere between 10 and 20. jenis afraid of heights. We bought 2 overpriced tickets and started up the stairs. Bless her heart, she only made it up 5 or 6 sets of stairs, then back down she went. I continued to the top huffing and puffing cause my fat ass is out of shape and then I get to the top and look down. I see my darling waving at me. My she looks small. There are children running and bouncing about on the metal grate that seperates us from the ground. uh huh. I take a few oblligatory pics and move on to the elevator down. I get in by myself. the door shuts and nothing happens...except for me beginning to panic. Oh I forgot to push the button. Ok whee here we go.I'm not nervous I always grip the railing like this. Midway down I hear a strange noise, and start to envy Jens phobia of heights. anyway I made it safe and sound. We got to see our frind heather. It is comforting knowing that you havn't seen a friend in a year and you can just meet for lunch and pick up like no time has passed at all.
The ride home was hell. Jen was crampingso I drove. I don't remember the interstate in alabama beign so bumpy but I started to get nauseous. And sleepy. I always get sleepy when I drive on the interstate. I don't know why. Actually if I am by myself I am ok, Otherwise, sleepy city.
I am going to try to work on a painting tonight. Talking to heather inspired me. We are very similar in a lot of ways . The way we deal, or not deal with our art is one of them. We both have fabulous ideas and get started on a new project and abandon it mid way through. She is reading a book called "fear of art" she says it is insightful. THat is what I need, some insight, cause my sight just aint strong enough |
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| yesterday i cried |
[Mar. 19th, 2004|06:30 am] |
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| | silence...it is 6:30 on a saturday morning. It is soo quiet. | ] |
Since last posting, jen and i had a fight, due to her impatience, which is hard for me to understand because I am super patient. I just started thinking that after 5 years of loyalty, sweetness, understanding, putting up with phobias, and sparcity of sex that I deserve some godamn patience if I am asking her help for something important. The other night she obviously didn't think so. She made me feel stupid about not knowing averythign there is to know about word, nevermind I showed her something and she uses the devil program every day. She told me that I was old enough to write my own cover letter, #1 indicating that I WANTED her to write it, which I didn't just to revise and proof, #2 I was not trying.Which I was, well I hadn't started yet but I was.
Anyways before the night was over I was pissed and crying, and then she started crying casue she knew she fucked up because I don't get mad...and she was crying. I felt terrible taht she was crying but I stood firm to my issue. I wasn't letting her steal my thunder.
We are ok now. 2 days later I still have a small owie but I am ok.
Yesterday work sucked...seems to be a recurring theme for me andwork. It was one of those days that everyone that I worked with was a raving idiot. It started out sooo well too. igot a free sample of eggbeaters on the way to work. Nothing like a half cup of free scrambled egg substitute, while you are walking 4 blocks in 30 degrees.
And as for FLO, I am still waiting on her. I hate the waiting. And the pre cramps and the bloating and the cravings.
Related, jen and I have cycled together for 2 months. What is weirder is that for the majority of our 5 years together, we didn't cycle together.
We were thinking about visiting Birmingham today. We still may. Depends on how she feels. I am ok with going, as long as I'm not cramping. Which I'm not at the current time. |
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| gush |
[Mar. 17th, 2004|05:15 pm] |
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| | crampy | ] |
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| | Jack's chattering | ] |
so, I've been cramping today. I read a book called Moon Days that was supposed to help you celebrate your "special time" of the month. Bullshit, this hurts. I saw a doctor about it once, she just shoved some birth control at me. I threw it away. I see no reason for a lesbian to take birth control, and I'm not a doctor or anything, but it seem like we should be interesting in finding out why it hurts like a mother, not just putting a bandaid on it. Maybe if I had 7 years of medical school I would see her side of it.
So.. I am cramping and work was rough. Russ was out so I was doing his job and mine, and tryign to help will out so he didnt get stressed cause he gets bitchy when he gets stressed. And then I was working with 2 new hires and training someone else on preflighting. I really like training new people, especially if they are willing. I didn't realized that I missed that about my stint as a manager at BK until now. It's almost like giving birth to new coworkers.
It is thursday and with thursday comes thursday night tv, minus scrubs, cause they moved that to tuesday, and good morning miami, I dunno what happened to that, it was a good show, it just didn't have any growing room. So I still have Will and grace and friends. But its is friends last season and they are doing some "Countdown to the greatest friends show ever" bullshit. Sooo.. I guess I just have will and grace. you can always count on a gay guy and his dysfunctional straight friends.
They put "the Apprentice" in place of scrubs and GMM ( I can't beleive I am talkign about this in depth) I hate reality shows. They are soooo lame. When survivor first came on it was interesting but then they did all these stupid spin offs. Just one crap show after another. i really miss quality sit coms. Facts of life, different strokes, cosby, roseanne, golden girls, designing women, ect. The eighties rocked for sit coms. I dunno what happened. Crack probably.
Anyway, jen will be home soon and we will have our "whats for dinner" discussion, just like we do every night. It is frustratingsometimes, but more comforting. I really like married life. I just am pissed off about not having a wedding. We got gyped out of a lot of presents. Though her parents did buy us a washer and dryer when we moved into our first "both of us apartment"
I know we could have a ceremony but I just don't see the point if it isn't for real. I mean we already exchanged rings. I want presents, and acknowledgement, and benefits.
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| icky tummy |
[Mar. 16th, 2004|08:36 pm] |
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I just ate some frozen chinese food and powder mix egg drop soup and some frozen pork egg rolls. It didn't sit well. I was feeling ill before I even finished the meal. I should have stopped and saved some room for the cheese popcorn that I have been craving all day, well since we went to the grocery store and came across a 40 pound bag of it. But I didn't save room and then for the next hour and a half my stomach twisted and turned until I thought I was going to die. I saw miniature chinamen dancing around my head. Alkaseltzer. Good ole' Alka saved the day. I am scared to eat my cheese popcorn now. I really want to though. I really, really do. |
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